my life through my eyes

2008-09-14T01:50:00.001+08:00

i've been missing for so long.. lol. skool is starting soon. tml in fact. dun really think i'm looking forward to it. seriously tired.

2008-07-30T10:04:00.002+08:00

once again cally as faithfully reminded me to update my blog. hehe. n i'm dying from diabetes due to a banana choc muffin dat is yummylicious cept dat its wayyyyyy too much choc chips. u might get excited over it at first! but de task of finishing it is tedious. i culd not taste my coffee afterwards. i secretly think dat she is trying to kill me! even her cornflakes cookies were sweet~~ i love de cornflake cookies!! more! more! more! somehow it might jus be a scheme to get me as fat as her. hehe. oops!! i ate it all b4 i remb to take a pic of it first! lol. maybe i'll borrow some pics from her.

i seriously mus get down to blogging snowflake's way overdue birthday post! its almost as if his not impt anymore(which is not true!) n it does not do him any justice but delaying further. so i might wanna do it tonight~ *fingers crossed* i oso haf a slimming regime dat is overdue. ha! i noe i've been toking abt it but no actions done. in fact, i think dat it has backfired! n i've put on weight! damn.. soo will be so happy to make fun or how 'properous' i've become. even online he can come n ask me abt it! i wanna lose weight! humph! but of cos i dun wanna be lyk soo who is jus skin n bone. lol. how nice if i can give my fats to him. den we'll both be jus nice!

working here really makes me think abt sociology alot. lol. i noe wat ur thinking but seriously! being alone most of the time n lack of social interaction will make ppl go crazy! either Durkheim spend most of his time alone or he has super gd observation and theory! exams results are coming out in one mths time!!!! omg.. hope i pass all.. plsplsplsplspls!

2008-07-18T11:02:00.007+08:00

WARNING: Long post ahead!

i noe i promised some of u to blog n upload pics. believe me i wanted to. until i read clifton's gf's blog. n i could not bring myself to do anything. while reading her blog i had to stop for intervals to blow my nose. its a very upsetting period for all of us n i hope by sharing her grief, it wuld slowly lessen de burden on her. i noe its not gonna be easy but dere isnt much of a choice. we'll neva be able to understand de excruciating pain dat she is going thru. haiz.

snowflake who called n heard my croaky voice got worried. he quickly reassured me dat he'll alwaiz be dere. n i felt so sorry for de times when i complained dat our lifes are mundane. sorry dat sometimes i purposely try to be unreasonable. sorry dat i said we shuld meet less often. i lyk our lifes now. wif u by my side. wif u who wuld alwaiz carry de load off my shoulder.

reminising back de past 1.5 years dat we've been together, we've gone thru loads together. we managed to endured de times when we were angry n upset with each other, when we're upset together. Skipped thru de best times of our lifes together n created wonderful memories to remember them by. i'll remember de days where u impressed me, de days where u comfort me, when u made me upset n with each passing day i jus love u more.

i dunno wat my life wuld be lyk wifout u n i dun wan to ever noe.

cally asked how me n snowflake met. n i decided to post it here so i dun hafta repeat this long storey over n over again. lol. we met abt 5-6 years ago when we were 15. i wuld say its fate dat we met. As it was a East zone cluster event where 8 schools sent representing members to go for de mt kinabalu trip. n to prepare us for de hike, we needed 2 months of intensive training. i was asked if i wanted to go, n of cos i wuld! when i was sporty back den, i wuld neva gif such a thing a missed! de only prob was my parents. hee. having an over protective dad meant dat it wuld be hard to get an approval. but for some reason my dad allowed. now i heard dat over at his side, it was up to them if dey wanted to go n could jus sign up for it. he wasnt so sure y he signed up fer it back den, but lyk i said, i guessed its fate. so over de 2 months we got to noe each other better n got closer. to de point where he asked if i wanted to be his gf. n i agreed! lol. n de next day i called him to say i wasnt ready yet. lol. being 15 i guessed we weren't serious nor really interested in this kinda stuffs n we neva contact each other even thou we haf each other in our msn list. till one faithful day, probably a sat. i went with a group of frens to high to play dota. hee. n so happened dat i met his fren.. glenn. lol. of all de ppl rite? was dere n so was yong jun n kai wei but i didnt noe them back den. i only knew glenn cos he went for mt kinabalu too. n we wanted to arrange for a frenly match. (we won of cos! hee.) anyway. dey were short of a player n glenn said dat nyap(my bf) was dere. n he dragged me to find him to get him to play. n he did! lol. after dat night, he started to msg me on msn n sms me. n it moved on from dere till de final day on de 10th of January 2007. i still rmb dat night where he had to go back to camp n he kept asking me if i was sure n dat i wun tell him de next day dat i wasn't ready yet so dat he culd slp in peace. hehe. yup! so dats our story~

additional notes: i complained dat he was so insincere abt asking. no flowers no noth. humph. lol. on valentine's day, he fetch me frm work n asked wat i wuld lyk to eat. as usual i wuld reply anything or i dunno. lol. we headed to his place first as he said dat his mum needed to use de car n he had to return it. n when i entered his room.............................. i saw a lil table wif flowers n dinner sets on it!!! he tooked de flowers, went on his knees n asked me to be his gf all over again. hee~ i melted on de spot. lol. (even thou de meal was cooked by his mum n not him! lol.) n we had de whole house to ourselves dat night. hee. thinking back, i was i ever so blind to not have realised de coffee table in de living room was missing!! so dats de end of my story!! (but my fairy tale doesnt end dere.. its ends wif a happily ever after. heh.)

de coffee table dat i didnt realised was missing frm de living room. lol.

de super sweet card!

so its ur turn to tell de story now cally~!

Sing along!!

Title: Stupid Cupid
Artiste: Francis Connie

Stupid cupid, you're a real mean guy
I'd like to clip your wings so you can't fly
I'm in love and it's a crying shame
And I know that you're the one to blame
Hey, hey -- set me free
Stupid cupid, stop pickin' on me!

I can't do my homework and I can't see straight
I meet him every morning 'bout a half-past eight
I'm acting like a lovesick fool
You've even got me carrying his books to school
Hey, hey -- set me free
Stupid cupid, stop pickin' on me!

You mixed me up but good right from the very start
Hey, go play Robin Hood with somebody else's heart
You've got me jumping like a crazy clown,
And I don't feature what you're putting down
Since I kissed his lovin' lips of wine,
The thing that bothers me is that I like it fine!
Hey, hey -- set me free
Stupid cupid, stop pickin' on me!

You've got me jumping like a crazy clown,
And I don't feature what you're putting down
Since I kissed his lovin' lips of wine,
The thing that bothers me is that I like it fine!
Hey, hey -- set me free
Stupid cupid, stop pickin' on me!
Hey, hey -- set me free
Stupid cupid, stop pickin' on me!

2008-07-17T11:39:00.004+08:00

hey babes~ i'm so sorry.. i've not disappeared. lol. jus dat been lazy to upload fotos.. yes! i noe i'm supposed to do it.. but i'm ever so lazy~ lol. so a lil quick update before heading out fer lunch since i had completed my work.. hehe..

i promise i will upload fotos tonight only?? maybe not all at one shot. but this r de stuffs i wanna upload.

snowflake's birthday
daddy's birthday
fotos of poo poo (caleen's doggie) oh so cute~
fotos of qiao e' baby!
gfs dinner!! which will happen later today. but not sure if i'll be late cos i'm not sure whether i hafta go pick up snowflake's car frm de service centre..
oh n loads of food pics~

i think i've put on weight. yuck! so fugly la.. i wanna exercise but u noe me~ after work so tired den lazy to exercise. lol.

i'm still addicted to online shopping! yes.. i noe i noe.. u knew it. dun rub it in arh!! lol. but i'm only stuck to zipia. hee! i'm such a bad influence la! now everybody arnd me wanna order frm zipia alrdy. lol. caleen's addicted to zipia too!! muahahaha~~~ u guys gonna see twins in sch le.. cos me n caleen gonna wear same things to sch!! hehe. maybe crash class tgt. hehe.

ok. aside frm shopping n work. my lifes basically boring. i dunno wat wrong wif it, but i jus think its boring. i wanna lose weight so i can wear my bikini!! ok its so random. but yeah. irony rite? cos if u noe me, u'll noe i wun wanna tann. hee~ i'll tell u when i've attained it. 4kgs more to go. jiayou! jiayou!

so excited abt dinner tonight cos jen is back~ n i can get to eat my fav pasta or crepe in baked cheese i think! i'll tell u more abt tonight, tonight. haha.

okie~ needa go buy my lunch now! till tonight den~ tata!

2008-07-07T21:03:00.002+08:00

booya!! been busy working n other stuffs dat i'm too lazy to upload any fotos. lol. currently waiting for sales to start n browsing n shopping. hehe. i noe i noe. i cut down alrdy!! but zipia is too tempting. heh. n everybody arnd me is getting influenced by me!! lol. oopsy~

i'm so tired n moody today, think i'm sick but ain't gonna elaborate further as i'm disgusted wif it myself. lol. think u will too if u noe.. i dun feel lyk working anymore!! work is not bad. i guess its jus me. not dat i'm gonna quit. nope. love de moolahhh~~ weeee~~~ 2 n 1/2 more weeks~~~

i order 2 items today!!! caleen recommend me the ljs.. nice nice. heh. i noe wat u guys thinking. *control control* me trying me best. *earnestly* i hope.. hee~

2008-06-27T11:55:00.002+08:00

i've been wanting to update my blog. trust me. but i've been hooked onto this new cantonese detective series. n i was oso lazy to upload fotos. so wat u've missed was nyap's birthday! n today is my daddy's birthday!! happy birthday daddy!! dun forget to wish my dad happy birthday arhh... lol. so after work will be heading home fer bbq!! lol. i promise i'll post nyap's n daddy's birthday soon!! but maybe post separately better? if not too long. n i've not gotten approval on posting de vids. for those of u who haf not seen nyap drunk n r dying to see it!! i'm gonna get de rights n post it here. so stay tune!! right now i gotta go back to do work in my lil old office. jus me n my work. lol. till den!

2008-06-19T02:42:00.004+08:00

i officially ban myself frm online shopping!! officially i tell u!!
ppl say shopping is a therapy but i tell u otherwise. evidence?

the evils of online shopping
Carlvino spree - $89.10
Zipia spree - $308.96
Closet runway spree - $$45.95
Vogue indulgence - $103
Shoe spree - $32.80
Zipia spree - $170.10
diaries spree - $28.80
Total - $777.75

how is this therapy?! its destructive more likely.
n all within a month!! see wat online shopping can do to u!
-banned-

no more online shopping!! ...for now.. hehe..

happy birthday snowflake!

2008-06-18T00:02:00.001+08:00

i slept de whole day n didnt go to work.
i lost my voice n i'm feeling under de weather.
my mood hasn't been gd either.
guess i shuld jus go n slp.
night.

2008-06-13T01:44:00.006+08:00

we usually unknowingly take our loved ones fer granted n we do not realised it till their gone.
den we're jus left with memories dat play slowly lyk a slow movie at de back of our heads..
and we're jus left with the 'wat ifs' and 'culd haf beens' n feelings of regrets dat lingers on..
and we're left with words dat cannot reach de ears of our love ones..

n i still rmb de times we chat..
n de times sms dat were send..
n de times we joke..
n dat i still owe u a present..
n de time when news of u stopped time..
n de times when i culdnt n didnt wan to believe..
n how u will be greatly missed..
my dear clifton..

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories
/singaporelocalnews/view/353643/1/.html

to all of clifton's frens.. last glimpse.
his wake will be held today at
sengkang rivervale drive blk 186

this is another of my fav song. hope u will love it too.
this song is dedicated to clifton's gf. our deepest condolences..

tell laura i love her- ray peterson

Laura and Tommy were lovers
He wanted to give her everything
Flowers, presents,
But most of all, a wedding ring

He saw a sign for a stock car race
A thousand dollar prize it read
He couldn't get Laura on the phone
So to her mother, Tommy said

Tell Laura I love her
Tell Laura I need her
Tell Laura I may be late
I've something to do, that cannot wait

He drove his car to the racing grounds
He was the youngest driver there
The crowed roared as they started the race
Around the track they drove at a deadly pace

No one knows what happened that day
Or how his car overturned in flames
But as they pulled him from the twisted wreck
With his dying breath, they heard him say

Tell Laura I love her
Tell Laura I need her
Tell Laura not to cry
My love for her will never die

Now in the chapel where Laura prays
For her poor Tommy, who passed away
It was just for Laura he lived and died
Alone in the chapel she can hear him cry

Tell Laura I love her
Tell Laura I need her
Tell Laura not to cry
My love for her will never die

Tell Laura I love her
Tell Laura I need her
Tell Laura not to cry
My love for her will never die

2008-06-08T17:17:00.005+08:00

jus wanted to noe which was more impt. however de ans had been staring at my face n i've been so oblivious to it while it conceitedly antagonise de fact dat the whole situation was so ironic. so wat i'm left wif are memories of shadows dat lingers arnd my middle finger.

my excrutiating irony...

2008-06-08T00:59:00.010+08:00

randomnesss~

heyzz.. i'm so glad to haf feedbacks dat u guys lyk de song!! do look out fer more songs kaez?? plus i noe u guys wan de song too. but sad to say dat de songs i do not haf de songs post on de blog. however, fer this particular song i got it alrdy. lol. cos my fren lyks it to n went thru all de pain to get it. so thank you wei kai!! hehe. de song cute rite? i used to sing it in karaoke when i was in pri skool i think. teehee. ok.. i wanna change song but i'm still loving this.. so i'll change de song next post okie? okie dokie! u cant say no anyway. hehe!

omg!! i'm sucha shoppeholic~ pls!! somebody control my addiction!! i've spent a few hunred dollars in a few days!! somebody stop me~~

btw. thx fer everybody's concern abt my msn nic. but dere is really nth wrong wif me. its jus something random on emo impulse. lol. now i noe so many ppl loves me~~ whee..

today i got some freshly made dumplings!! nice~ tml is dumpling festival!! neva celebrated b4. but kinda cute rite? think shuld be fun.

everybody!! pls watch project runway season 4!! i'm in love wif Christine Siriano!! his so cute n his so fierce! plus his design are gorgeous!! heres his fiercest moments!!

daddy's day is on de 15th june so tell ur daddy u love him alrite?? n a lil something! teehee. havent decided wat to get my dad yet. anyway~ i love u daddy!!

2008-06-04T02:34:00.005+08:00

lol. if u guys noticed, i changed de music so it wuld not be too monotonous. one of my fav song when i was young... i got many many fave songs when i was young.. lol! dun think many ppl or anybody noe dat! cept fer my family. dun think baby noes too. lol. look out for de songs when i change ok?? n listen to de words carefully.. its super nice.. maybe u might noe some of de songs or it might be one of ur fav too!

anyway. i got work tml. haiz. mus wake up early but i cant slp. lol. i was beat jus now but now i'm so awake! i think de work is fine, its jus de waking up part. heh. i need slppp... so i'm gonna slp now. update more tml or something.. hehe..

jus in case u love de song too n wanna sing along lyk me.. lol..
here's de lyrics

Don't Cry Joni - Twitty Conway and Joni Lee

(Joni)Jimmy please say you'll wait for me
I'll grow up someday you'll see
Saving all my kisses just for you
Signed with love forever true

(Twitty)Joni was the girl who lived next door
I've known her I guess 10 years or more
Joni wrote me a note one day
And this is what she had to say

(Joni)Jimmy please say you'll wait for me
I'll grow up someday you'll see
Saving all my kisses just for you
Signed with love forever true

(Twitty)Slowly I read her note once more
Then I went over to the house next door
Her tear drops fell like rain that day
When I told Joni what I had to say

Joni, Joni please don't cry
You'll forget me by and by
You're just fifteen
I'm twenty two
And Joni I just cant wait for you

Soon I left our little home town
Got me a job and tried to settle down
But these words kept haunting my memory
The words that Joni said to me

(Joni)Jimmy please say you'll wait for me
I'll grow up some day you'll see
Saving all my kisses just for you
Signed with love forever true

(Twitty)I packed my clothes
And I caught a plane
I had to see Joni
I had to explain
How my heart was filled
With her memory
And ask my Joni if she'd marry me

I ran all the way
To the house next door
But things weren't like they were before
My tear drops fell like rain that day
When I heard what Joni had to say

(Joni)Jimmy, Jimmy please don't cry
You'll forget me by and by
It's been five years since you've been gone
Jimmy I married your best friend John

sad rite?? dunno lyk i lyk sad songs..hmm.. haiz..
makes me sad too.. -emo-
so this is my sad face.
dun ask me to post my ugly or crying face~
i dun haf any pics of em n u cant take em! u noe who u r.. lol.

2008-05-28T01:35:00.009+08:00

yay! exams are overrr~ deres so many thing i wanna post abt..but sad to say i hafta cut short everything. lol. not in chronological order too, if u noe me, u'll noe i'm bad wif chronological order. lol. so lets start wif today~ met candy fer donut's at sammi's cafe. Sammi's cafe is called dippin donuts! located at de new downtowneast shopping mall. everybody shuld go n try it. can loves it so much while i jus had to satisfy my cravings wif 2 sweety cheese donuts.. yummy~ n can jus had to steal my cheese.. sad. we proceed to de arcade fer de rest of de day. lol. n i spend $1 to win winnie de pooh!!

so cute rite? puppet tigger!!
anyway. some japanese guys ask if dey culd take fotos wif us. lol. which made can float on cloud 9. wahaha. she totally culd not stop harping on it.

celebrated jas's birthday at the coffee club at siglap. u betta use wat i gaf u jas!!! told u i have many birthdays this month!! next is yr's birthday! right smack in de middle of exams. lol. so we stop by for a lil while.

de super elated birthday girl with her banana choc cake!

ct serenaded de birthday girl with her guitar.

sacians all grown up!

uol babes! n their bfs.. lol.

how did we fare for yr's bohemian theme party?? lol. jus threw on some stuffs which i'm not even sure if its bohemian. lol. due to exams, all of us had to leave to go mug.. lol. sad life we have huh.. but not wifout supper.. lol. jovie, tt, jy n me! needed our supper boost. hehe.

mini celebration again after maths exam.. lol. to make up for de lost of dat night.

de babes..

all of us.. outside exams hall..

flippy loves godiva ice creamm..

hmm...

hee~

2008-05-11T02:38:00.007+08:00

exams... haiz.. dun wanna tok abt it. i feel so stupid in uni. maybe i'm jus not cut out fer it. jus hope i'll pass. haiz.

anyway. as i was saying in my last post, de next event was jinhui's birthday held at central. lol. all i can say abt it is LOADS OF DRINKING! noth much actually. jus drink drink drink, sing, drink drink, cake, drink, fotos, drink drink drink. heh. didnt drink thou cos i was driving. damn. hehe. anyway de day after jinhui's birthday was jermey's birthday but i didnt go. too many parties, too lil time. cos after dat was exams. lol. but no worries. more to come!! hehe. still got jas, yr, rebecca's party all in this month!! now i'm broke.. hehe. jus fer de record, jh's birthday was on de 2nd may. see.. so closely packed rite? *shakes head* all de may babies..

btw, de only person who got drunk dat night was de birthday boy. lol.

birthday boy n his cake...

his face is red not cos his touched by us but cos he drank too much

yj caught him!! for........

takes 3 guys to hold 1 small jh?????

for this.. hehe. looks lyk birdshit to me.. lol.

jh n his newly found gf!

got rejected.. aww..

de girls trying to make de guys drunk. lol. n while we were playing away, de birthday boy was....

outside....

puking...

these kinda frens.. lol.

2nd try....

finally some action... hehe.

happy birthday boy!

us...

de whole bunch..

btw happy mother's day!!!
every mum is de greatest, jus becoz dey try their best to be de greatest mum dey noe how..
i love u mummy!!

candy's pajamas party

2008-05-05T00:17:00.009+08:00

WARNING: SUPER LONG POST AHEAD
Abit late to post this but i had to wait for the pics.

30Apr-1May
Candy's 21st birthday PJ party~~

this little setting took place in a tiny cafe right smack in the middle of assiduous chinatown. i entered through the creaky wooden stair up to the main grounds where couples were sitting by the windows sipping coffee, engaged in their own world. absorbing the tranquility, a friendly waiter directed me to remove my shoes and up another flight of wooden stairs. peering into the room, i was delightfully greeted by the smiles from faces that i've missed so much.

Candy! the birthday girl. i didnt noe that uno has number 21. lol.

Angeline

Yi Rong

Chin teck

Vanessa

Me!

okok. i was late, but not the latest! dinner started without me of coz.. but i manage to catch up on de clam chowder and a smoked salmon sandwich as i was rather full. the lychee freeze was superb! one of the best i would say! (sorry no pics of the food. too busy eating. lol) Anyway as i was saying, i was not the latest! and i'm proud of that! hehe. thus, we had some nostalgic games of heart attack and then taboo. lol. think it has been about 5 or more years since we last played heart attack together. lol.

trying to figure out what yr is trying to make us guess.

and we seriously do not get it. lol.

finally jasmine arrived!! she had exactly the same for dinner as me cos she couldnt decide.

yr, ct and van had painstakingly tried to get the cake and icing into the cafe first without candy noticing. Alas! yr wrongly sent an sms about the cake to candy. hehe. thankfully all was not lost.

here we are trying to decorate the cake.

ta da~ the icing is not easy to squeeze!! i think we did a gd job. heh.

candy n her cake!

group photo!

van does all the work cos she noes can can't do it

i seriously dunno why our faces are like that, hehe.

PAJAMAS TIME~

and we had to play scrabble. lol. its candy's favourite game..

racking their brains at 1am in de morning.

took photos while each other took turns to think!! luckily its 2 per group. 2 brains are definately better than 1.

not so easy huh. vowels theives!!

van doesnt really like this game huh. it was a tough match! but jas and i won by a mere 2 points. yay!!

cheezels~~

we jus love our names! *muack*

jinhui's birthday party next post!! too tired already. hee.
plsplsplsplspls let me have the motivation, determination and concentration cos my exams are coming!!!!!

2008-05-02T09:29:00.003+08:00

yes yes.. i'm awake so early in the morning on the 2nd of may. thats cos i'm still awake. ha! i was up all night doing don't know wat. god. adn i realised i better start posting b4 my fotos pile up. its piling, trust me.

many many events ahead tells me 2 things:
1) i had loads to blog abt
2) i'm gonna be broke

oh wait. i already am... lol. had this stupendous spreee binge. alright alright hold ur horses! i know i'm suppose to be studying. but i just can't help it. save me~ anyway.. lol. thanks to my lovely boy who paid for more den half of my sprees. *muack* and when i say binge i meant slightly over 4 digits i think... tiny weeny slightly ok... ok just slap me! i'm supposed to be studying!!! and what did i do?? all within a month!! goodness gracious! i'm banned i'm telling you. i'm so banning myself!!

overnight pajamas party~~~~ Candy's 21st birthday party. next post k? have not gotten the photos yet. candy!! are you reading this?? lol. pls send me quick! cos later tonight is jh's birthday!! and they are going pubbing. why am i not surprised.

realised i should really stop relying on my handphone camera and bring my digi cam out instead of letting it collect dust. anyway, i'm gonna type in full now for my danish friends who are reading this. i miss you guys loads! will definately head to copenhagen and refuse to budge from your living room floor. and pls come online when its not it the wee hours in the morning for me! heh.

i'm rattling away like a drunken monkey if cos i'm super tired and i need some sleepp!!

ok.. another food galore.. now you know why i'm fat? need to lose weight.. seriously.. sad..

At al forno

baby's pisa pizza! he forced me to eat a slice.

my crabmeat pasta! i forgot it's name.
Edward's fav. he eats it almost every week.

that him and the pizza..

tiramisu~ ed said it's nice but i don't think so.
maybe different branch?

*muack*

anderson's again! sorry its always half eaten.

the boyfriend being forced to smile.

berry goodness~~

boon tong kee!!

our current craze! went twice in a row.

steam white chicken! yumz..

spare ribs king! (Direct translation.. hehe!)

3 assorted eggs! its huge. compare the plates below..

my boy always eat 2 bowls of rice when we're there.

Gelare~

nothing tastes better than ice cream waffles!!
and to top it off, its chocolate chip waffle with banana walnut ice cream!!
everybody should try it!!

k. i gotta get some shut eye for the next 1.5hrs.
tell me you love me babes!! cos i love you!

2008-04-07T18:17:00.008+08:00

taking a break off studying i finally decided to put a halt to my procrastination and blog. its been a month since i last blog so dats abt how long i procrastinated. lol. alot has happened within this month. loads of pics to upload since the iceskating trip to aston prime to shangri la to ice cream feast. lol. will have short snippets but noth too long. heh. exams are coming in exactly 1 month!! omg!!!! not even halfway thru.. howhowhow~~ panicking doesnt really help when i'm typing away huh. i'm not really into the panick and study mode yet but is trying to get into the study regularly mode. althou sometimes it doesnt really work. wish i culd jus turn the dial n i wuld mug lyk hell. lol.

my birkenstocks finally arrived!! hehe. still waiting fer my facial stuffs to come in thou. its been so long since i ordered. haiz. no more shopping sprees till after exams. saded. oh well.

enuff abt this sad sad topic of exams..

snippets!!!

my smiley~ at botak jones.. cute?

crabcakes~ super gd!! huge chunks of crabmeat. super yummylicious!! as gd as eating a whole crab! my fav~

look at de crabmeat sticking out! yumz..

my half eaten tenderloin steak. N.Z.

hee.. at aston prime.

salmon sashimi all to myself! i finished everything believe it or not. lol. who loves sashimi!?!

not forgetting de seafood lyk de fresh oysters n crab claws!

lol. i ate more den wats shown. hee.

baby's bad at choc fountain. he put part of his plate into de fountain. wahaha!!! n his petri dish dessert.

my choice of dessert looks nicer rite? ha!

lychee martini look alyk! its a dessert of cos!

at shangri la (The line)

i had 5 scoops of anderson ice cream de other day!! ryan n i had 5 scoops each!!

omg!!! i can't believe i finished everything! lol.

n de next day baby brought me to hagen daz for ice cream!! my applepie ice cream! yummy!!!

sorry my food are mostly half eaten. lol. irresistable temptation!

lastly a lil photo of my lil flippy for those who dunno him yet. cute rite?

2008-02-20T20:21:00.004+08:00

caught this movie on mon. its super sad yet super touching yet super sweet. aww.. dats wat i wuld say. gd show! so if ur wondering wat movie to catch this week, i would highly recommend it. 5popcorns! but rmb to bring tissue. i'm gonna get de dvd when it comes out. i love it! lol. it made me cried lyk abt 4 times. n as the film rolled, sounds of sniffs echoed the 4 four walls. n de only thing dat consoled me were de soft kisses on my head reminding me dat i wasnt her. i wuld not lyk to be her nor in her shoes. this movie reminds us to treasure de people arnd us n to express our feelings n tel em we love them before its too late.

therefore we shuld all cherish our love ones! go gif em a kiss today!! make them happy!

P.S. I love you!

2008-02-17T17:49:00.006+08:00

hee.. was to lazy to post yest cos it was a lonng day!! so now i found the time to post this while snowflake washes the car. snowflake brought me to play mini golf yest!! so we spent the whole day trying to hit colourful balls into the hole. lol. 18holes! but we did not play all cos snowflake said it was too easy. chey~ hee~ we played till dinnertime!! yay!! my fav time!! hehe. den we went to meet kw, rz, wt, eve n jus to catch jumper while the rest went clubbing. as usual... lol. jumper is not bad!! quite cool. if only. heh! we're still so tempt to go play jackpot!!! arhhh.. hehe. but mus control!! later gonna play number again.. so near to jackpot but yet so far.. tempting tempting~ anyway. we went to fei fei fer supper n snowflake ate again!! oh no! fat~ lol. dats y reach home so late n was too lazy to post. lol.

it happened too suddenly. i culd not adjust n got affected by it. but it does not concern me n i do not wan to interfere. hee..

need to get down to it, really need to. i need strengh n focus!! concentration concentration this is de game of concentration. hmmm..

minigolf!

we r still students!!

looks lyk ice cream.. yumyum..

our ball is taking a train ride!

godzilla~~

cable car rite!

i suck at de fountain of wealth.

changi airport!!

he makes it seem so easy..

king kong!

stingray! satay beehoon! chicken wings!
yummylicious!

2008-02-16T04:17:00.004+08:00

i wuld say today has been n extremely interesting n exciting day. well it all started when after the sun had set. we set off fer lp's birthday party, snowflake's fren. dere was a guest star for the evening n he appeared in his usual black vest n yellow towel which he is sooo famous for. lol. yup! steven lim alright.. hehe! his so funny dat snowflake culdn't stop laughing n everyone kept cheering encore. lol. his a really nice guy in person. after de performance n some rounds of blackjack, we headed to tamp where snowflake, yj n jh played number while kw, rz, jus, eve, glenn n me went to play jackpot!! hehe!! i won $22!! wahahaha~ shiok man. jus looking at de figures increasing n clicking de 'collect' button n listening to de coins dropping is all to addicting.. hehe. i spend quite abit so in de end only win $5. unlyk somebody so lucky.. win $530!! omg~ i'm so itchy fer more~~ hehe. tempting.. tempting.. but when it comes down to this, its all abt self control.. heh! lucky me! n de rest.. we got $10!! thanks dude!! so i made a total of $15 today. wee~~ happyhappy me!

hehe..

steven n birthday girl

cheeky kw!

kw jus loves it!!

2008-02-15T02:33:00.011+08:00

happy valentine's day!!

v day was great all becos of u! thx snowflake! dinner den chill at max's brenner's chocolate bar! back to where it all began.. hehe! i'm supposed to post some pics. snowflake say my blog so boring only got words. saded. so here i am up to upload some pic to brighten up my blog. lol. anyway i shuld write less cos its gonna be a long post wif all those pics. as dey say a picture tells more than a thousand words.

starting wif my bday. long overdue pics!

celebration #1

NARCISSISTIC!!

chocolate buffet at fullerton!!

chocolates make us crazy..

my surprised cake! lol

snippets of greedy me..

celebration #2

the bakers!

i'm so touched!!

tim only cares abt the cornflake cookies!!

food at breko~

celebration #3

yummy sushi!

minds cafe~~ too fun to take pics. lol.

my prezzie~

celebration #4

yellow yellow dirty fello~

action only!

my fav place fer now!! yum yum~

colour coded..

celebration #5

at al forno wif my family

my present! thx snowflake! love love it~

long rite?? i oso tired. lol. still got vday!! hee..

i got henna!

at max brenner

wats wif dat face!! hehe~ silly snowflake..

chocolate lick~

drink me!

my vday pressie! wat can i say.. he loves me!! my ipod manager!

happy valentine's day ppl~

2008-02-08T23:51:00.000+08:00

hehe~ i'm so sorry fer taking sosososo long to update. guess i was either too busy or too lazy. take ur pick! lol. but i wuld say its abit of both!

long overdue birthday speech..

i wuld first lyk to thank everyone who had made to effort to organise my birthday celebration, for buying me presentss~ for making cards for me, baking cake and giving me pleasent surprises. but most of all, i wuld lyk to thank all for taking time out of their busy schedules to spend some lil time with me. thou the week-long celebration was tiring, i was greatly touched. thanks for all de smses dat came ringing even thou i was still snoring.. lol. thanks for remembering my birthday n those who msged me on msn, frenster, facebook. i'm sorry dat some of u had trouble finding me cos i've changed my hp number. thanks for taking de trouble. hee~
(i will find de time to post some pics in de next post. hee~)

so cny was great! still haf more visitations to go. but playing mahjong, blackjack n bacarrat was extremely exciting!! been getting loads of banluck! if dats how u spell it anyway. lol. my bf's luck is somehow slightly better den mine i guess cos his been getting banban!! now dats not very fair i think. hehe. oh well. his money is my money too! haha! so he betta win more! lol.

on to nonsense rambling. it wasnt very pleasent. it was not wat i expect. confused. mixed. i dunno. i hate it. i resent it. its jus an illusion. its jus a dream. i hope.

2007-11-17T16:51:00.000+08:00

my life is blend. blend lyk chicken soup. mus consider wat i shuld do abt it. dere are so many things to do. so many things to see. but first i mus decide if i shuld go in my old shoes, in a new one, or jus go barefooted!

2007-10-31T00:11:00.000+08:00

haf u eva wondered y when ur on de top of de world or at de highest peak in ur life, someone somewhere jus have to push u down? n as u roll down u pause for a second and ponder y it has to be u? i alwaiz had internal locus of control so y is it not within my grasp? guess wat goes up mus come down huh.. jus lyk de share prices dat bounce up n down unpredictably. jus lyk de rain dat has to eventually go back to de sky n down again.

i can understand ur situation n where ur coming from, dats y i can't forgive myself.

2007-10-05T17:04:00.000+08:00

oh happy day! oh happy day! lol. cos today is de day i get my license~!! woot! 1st attempt~ hehe. so today is a lucky day. i got a super friendly tester and de easiest route! or so i heard frm my fren. hehe. so lucky me is a happy me!

2007-09-12T22:14:00.001+08:00

n now its time fer my fav!!!! baked chicken chop n sppppaagggettiii~~~ wif lotsa cheese pls~ hee~~ yummy yum yum!! *drooling excitedly*

2007-09-12T20:56:00.000+08:00

haven. dats where i'm in rite now. my lil blissful haven. where i'm happy, where i'm safe.. the white light dat alwaiz shines thru the darkness to guide me n to keep me away frm the loneliness. this is where i am. n this is where i'll alwaiz wan to be.. to be here. neva to let go. my lil star. my happiness. my love.
-njy100107-

i'm shouting! i'm shouting!! gfs of the world unite!! its shoppppping time~ wahahaha~
i miss you babes~ miss me too!!! hee~~

2007-09-05T01:14:00.000+08:00

hee~ jus caught ratatoullie today~ super cute. baby n flippy loves it too!! lol. it was a fun filled sunny day today! met up wif gfs fer kbox n hell did we sang lyk dere was no tml!! lol. lucky fotos cant captured de crazy things we did or we'll definately look lyk retards. lol. den went down to get ratatoullie wif my baby!! i love de show!! omg.. i wish i culd haf a lil rat too.. aww.. lol. tml will be another movie day cos i got 2 tix to hairspray~~ wheepiy! jus love love love it~~

//shout of de day! dun hurt de one u love, or de one who love u even thou u dun love em//

cheer up babe! u r worth much more den he makes u out u be.. u deserve better..

2007-08-27T20:08:00.000+08:00

sitting here in de dark. waiting fer my baby to wake up fer dinner, thots of wat i've read tip toed into de empty space. i noe its abt me. i feel wronged. but i do not wanna interfer as much as i haf already indirectly done. i do not wan to be a prick. i jus wish her all de best. n gd luck.

2007-08-27T14:50:00.000+08:00

its been a looonng time since i last updated. n no. i'm not dead sarah. quite unfortunate huh. lol. i've jus been busy wif photoshoots, weddings, birthdays, skool, outings, online shopping dat i was too lazy to update! lol. me n my lazyness. so now dat i do not haf skool n haf noth much to do cept fer study which i'm procrastinating rite now. i've decided to update! lol.

plans fer today was postponed, i guessed it all started on sat when we caught bourne at midnite wif de rest. god~ i think it had been months since i ate mac, n i lovee my mcflurry. n it was an alll nite dota till lyk 6 in de morning. lol. slept fer 2 hrs had training!! n went to JY house n slept again. lol. but JY slpt more. he slept when we were at his grandma's place. n i had lotsa fun when he was slping. lol. learned de tricks of de trade~ learning to iron 101 wif joseph. lol. loads of idle chitchat on dancing n many many more until he woke up.. aww.. well cut de crap. cos he slept till lyk 11pm, he did not slp de whole nite so his dying at work now. lol. so plans cancelled. jus dinner n a massage which i promise b4 home again. so now i'm jus looking forward to dinner n wed! lol. oh shit. ok i'm mixed up. i think we caught bourne on fri n went womad on sat. -scatterbrain-

read a few stuffs n i realised how much i love my baby. we're coming to 8 months n we r lyk still in honeymoon period~ hehe. i wun say dat dere aint any hicuupps here n dere. but, all in all yikes~ i dunno wat i'm toking abt. i jus noe i appreciate loads fer everything he has done.

skool is gd. i love psoc! but its de first week cant say much. i'm still in love wif my timetable.

n obessing wif flippy! i'm not de only one~ JY included~ so currently i'm wif flippy 24/7. spend more time wif flippy den wif baby. lol. his oh so cute. will post a pic of flippy soon.

regrets. i haf none. i haf none becoz i haf u.

okok. sry fer de mushy post today peeps. gotta go study now! till later`

2007-08-09T02:16:00.000+08:00

first and foremost i wanna thank tuixin fer sending me here n dere n fer teaching me maths! lol. i mus be a really bad student huh.. lol. but i mus say it has really been a fruitful day studying wif kent n tuixin n sherwin. i guess i benefited more frm it den em. lol. i'm really hardworking today!! hehe. so proud of myself! even after tuxin send me, i continue to do work n harress tuixin to teach me on msn. poor boy. think his scared of me. de worst thing is dat i gaf him de wrong qn n laughed at him when he culdn't solve it. lol. but his a gd tcher! cos i learnt alot today.

u reap wat u sow, dats wat dey said. n since i was really hardworking, i was rewarded to sushi-tei at vivo! yeah yeah i noe. vivo again. i can't help it if i lyk it dere. hehe. i had salmon sashimi wif salmon roe, chawanmushi, tempura. get this. its not ebi tempura where its prawns. its crab my dear. yeah its not typo error. crab!! de whole piece of crab meat dat is shelled n deep fried in tempura flour. oommmgg!! wowee~ had a few pieces of sushi dats not worth mentioning. n jumbo yakitori!!! n when i mean jumbo! i mean jumbo! my eyes nearly popped out n drop onto de floor. this is de jumbo yakitori! doesnt look very big. try comparing to de plates n bowls but unless u see it urself. u'll noe wat i mean.

looks really yummylicious huh~ to top it off! i had flatten chocolate chip ice cream in egg crepe! super delicious! one of my fav ice cream now. althou ice cream is alwaiz my fav no matter wat. hehe.

jy wanted to buy pick n mix den make me carry!! cos its pink n he doesnt wanna be seen carrying pick n mix. so mean rite??? lol. caught rush hour 3 wif eve n jus after dinner! really funny. i love jackie chan! a pity it felt lyk it ended quite abruptly. still a nice show nonetheless. everybody loves kungfu fighting~~ lol.

thanks jy! for de extremely yummylicious n expansive dinner n movie. n fer sending me home as alwaiz. hehe. greatly appreciated~

2007-08-06T18:50:00.000+08:00

yest's nite pizza dinner was goood~ dere was roast beef, salami, pepperoni, salmon, zucchini, spinich, ham & cheese, bacon, huge sausage and wedges. yum yum~ it was so delicious dat i fergot to take a pic.. oops! hehe. accompanied by a bottle of ice cold sparkling orange juice. yummy~ at an italian cafe down 5th avenue. i gif it 2 thumbs up~

after dinner went to de arcade n i finally caught my mickey mouse!! was de last one n i caught it~ it was meant to be. hehe. now mickey n minie are together! yay! will post a pic of em soon! den root beer float and thick chocolate milkshake at billy bombers~ we sure noe how to enjoy life huh.. relax chill n it was time fer disturbia. wasn't really fantastic but alrite i guess. noth culd end the nite betta den a slow stroll home. de nite doesn't feel so lonely anymore.

oh well! de best part of today is my roti prata breakfast!! oohh so crispy! lol. i a great dinner later on.. i'm still on my toes fer dat! hehe. in an hour time i presume. my stomach rumbling. grumbling. feed me! feed me! lol.

btw! here a really cute n sweet vid. compliments of herbert! thx fer de vid! watch all de way to de end. super-duber-uber-cute! (= enjoy guys~

2007-08-05T13:18:00.000+08:00

i used to think my fortress was study. it was something i culd lean on for support, to shield me frm the rain, to protect me frm harm. i guess. things will neva be de same again..

clubbing last nite was fun. retro. my fav. songs frm 'can't take my eyes off you' to 'sway'. but i was sad. i half wanted to cry on de dancefloor, half wanted to dance everything away.

it has lost its meaning. everything jus became meaningless. it has all lost its value. including me..

2007-08-04T02:21:00.000+08:00

i have neva felt so stupid before. i can't even do a simple maths prob how can i even handle all dat? jus a useless good for noth. wats my purpose in life? do i even haf 1? ha! i noe its jus a circle n it'll jus go round and round but sometimes my stupidity neva ceases to amaze me. knowing it will go round n round but till thinking it will go straight. maybe it neva go straight. not for me i guess. i dunno.

y?!?! y can i jus do everything rite?? y?? i hate myself!! i hate myself for being so stupid! i can't take me anymore..

this is all i haf. de consolation of solitaire. the familar space dat has once been long forgotten has came back to make its presence known. wuld refusal anger it? wuld acceptance crumble the longings and hopes?

i dunno. i dunno. i dunno.

2007-08-04T00:42:00.000+08:00

lost of interest. lost of value. dats wat i can say. jus lyk cars, de value depreciates until its worthless n its time for de scrapyard. one mus alwaiz focus on reality cos this is where we live in. not dreamlands. no. dreamlands are for de weak. for them to haf hope. to haf something to pin on. but no. dreams will neva become reality. to pin on something is foolish. cos de higher u climb, de harder u'll fall. thus when expectations get to high, disappointment wuld therefore be greater. this why the people u love can hurt you more den ur enemies culd eva do. n all u can do is wish dat they wun do it to u rite?? but lyk i say wishing n dreaming are for de weak. reality is where we live in n reality is wat we mus face.

one shuld also learn to haf a high tolerance level. a person wif high tolerance can go very far. but jus how far will de person benefit in life? will he gain things dat people wuld wish for? or will he jus lose out in life?

i dunno how tolerant i am. i haf alwaiz wish dat i was more tolerant. but i realise i mus wake up. i'm not a lil girl in dreamland anymore. i can't stay in dreamland fereva. perharps this is de time to grow up. if not when?

i realise i lack patience, tolerance n intelligence. therefore i keep hoping, keep waiting, keep wishing dat things wuld be different. things will change. you will realise. am i really jus a fool in dreamland? if so, y wake me up now?

i dunno how long i can stay in dreamland. i jus wish one day i can jus fall aslp n neva wake up. wun dat be blissful? maybe dere is a way to go dere. to stay dere. to neva wake up. i jus need to find a way... i need to find a way..

thanks for sending me home kent. n thx for de comfort.

2007-07-31T23:43:00.000+08:00

wow! today has been a great day! even thou today's de first day of skool. hehe. was so excited i was awake early in de morning. yup! started wif a really gd pizza breakfast~ or shuld i say lunch. n econs is haiz. *shakes head* i understand wat his saying and all. guess its jus a lil confusing.

can't believe and let me repeat myself. i can't believe i queued 2 freaking hours for 12 donuts! i noe i said i'll never queue 2 hours for donuts. haiz. hehe. oh well. it was kinda fun doing stupid stuffs wif ya frens. i love spicy cheese~~~ 12 sweet round sugar things. hee~ now i can't decide which is betta. de one at vivo or de one at raffles. hmm.. i lyk both if somebody queues fer me! muahaha. de waiting is kinda demoralising. but i guess its de wait dat makes u enjoy it more. hehe.

oh oh oh~~ and dere noth betta den having donuts n den watching the simpsons movie!! finally got to watch it! its uber funny!! i culdnt stop laughing. frm de start till de end. i laugh so much my throat hurts. haha. spider pig~ spider pig.. lol. good way to end de day.

super tired~ all de concentrating, all de waiting, all de laughing. lucky no skool tml. lol.

2007-07-30T22:59:00.000+08:00

today was great~ shopping n chilling wif gfs~ sinful dinner consisting of ice cream brownie, banana crumble n topless 5 frm swensens. its great to see em again. all 4 of us living separate lifes going our separate ways yet we all come together connected by our past. *grins*

2007-07-30T12:24:00.000+08:00

Got this frm an email. shuld be under warner brothers i guess. sometimes i lyk to think abt. maybe u shuld too. hehe.

2007-07-29T22:52:00.000+08:00

here i am lying on my bed, relinquishing abt yesterday and how i was greeted wif buttermilk pancakes, cheesey sauages, scramble eggs, hashbrown and creamy mushrooms accompanied by a glass of ice cold orange juice and a cup of hot coffee. it was a hearty breakfast i wuld say. it was a good day in a good way. and it was mostly dota after dat... *grins*

i culd safely say it was harry potter's day today. spent most of my time reading it after my afternoon nappy. i'm exhilarated at de fact dat i'm gonna finally noe all de ans but yet, i linger upon finishing. i jus did not wan to continue. i did not wan de story to end so fast. why do all good things come to an end?? hopefully not all. hopefully my light wuld not falter.

oh well.. retail therapy ought to do it! hehe. shopping wif my gfs tml~!! can't wait! will miss my teddy bear thou. hmm.. sudden crave for donuts! donuts! i'm going donuts! hm... yummylicious~

2007-07-23T12:35:00.000+08:00

even though its uncomfortable all i can do is bear. bear wif it i tell myself. de only consolation is dat it wuld all be over all too soon. de dilema of it all. i wish i had de ans to everything. den i wuld be oh so smart! wahahaha~ urgh..

2007-07-21T02:59:00.000+08:00

its been sometime since i last blog. been really busy. actually is abit of lazyness too. hehe. photoshoot was great. i had loads of fun. shall post some photos later or tml. haf more photoshoots coming up both indoor n outdoor. looing forward to it. enjoy orientation camp, met lotsa funny ppl. did stupid things. alot of sick stuffs but its all jus memories now. met de babes fer dinner n ice cream!! i scream for ice cream~ i scream for ice cream~ hehe. i made extremely good recommandation rite candy?? rite jas? hehe. i alwaiz make good recommandation. esp on food. i love food. yippey~ ice cream! ice cream! n Happy Birthday Celina! love de strawberry cheesecake! yummylicious! too bad my stomach not feeling well. haiz. sob sob. oh! harry potter is coming out today!! hehe. but i neva pre-order. maybe later can go buy.

maybe its true. maybe its not. maybe its gonna be true. maybe it will be true. i wun think abt it. i dun wan it to be true. i hope it wun be true. i trust it wun be true. i haf faith it wun be true. i need it to not be true.

2007-07-14T23:49:00.000+08:00

i'm so sad. i tried my best. i think i did try my best. perhaps its jus not enough. perhaps.

2007-07-12T23:36:00.000+08:00

my lil teddy is outta de box! u can tell his getting better when he starts getting naughty again. lol. he lost some fluff here n dere but his alright now!

2007-07-11T23:13:00.000+08:00

Get Your Sexy Name

2007-07-11T22:57:00.000+08:00

my brave lil teddy bear. my brave lil teddy bear did not cry. i on de otherhand almost burst out but i put on a bravefront and held back my tears so as not to scare my lil teddy. i felt so helpless n useless. i culdnt do anything to make my lil teddy feel better. i felt so hurt to see him suffer leddat. seeing fluff come out. wish i culd do something to make de pain go away. disappear. but its not within my means. haiz. he has to sleep in de box one nite fer observation purposes. to ensure dat fluff doesnt come out anymore. through all dat pain, he said i love you n thank you. words culd neva describe de emotions dat ran around when those words marched into my ears. my heart jus melt has if dey were made of sugar with honey poured onto it. get well soon my lil teddy bear! i love you!

2007-07-10T23:45:00.000+08:00

the happy clouds filled me wif disgust as they mock me wif their fluffy cotten. the neverending waves crash upon de shores warning me, passing de message through de howling winds. i stubbornly ignore n wat was to come, came. it hit me. it hit me hard. n now, i'm red. all red like de baboon's backside.

the wind danced through my hair as if i'm flying. flying wifout wings. i spotted an areoplane n got excited. it was a whole new journey into de enchanted forest. dats wat i called it. tall tree trunks lined one by one, falling in by de sides as if they were here to greet us. looking out for pixies n fairies, i know dat dey are there peeping out at us. i can feel it. their magic dust. alas, de journey was short. but i had fun. jus me n my teddy bear.

after a nice cold bath n a short rest, we headed to a sushi bar! yummy! dinner was really delicious. irresistable~ to top it off, ice cream!! new ice cream palor down de road. yummy! yummy! i'm gonna try mrs smiths soon! wowwee! i had ice cream waffles fer lunch n ice cream after dinner. wat more can i ask fer? hehe.

tml will be an arduous journey for my teddy bear. but i'm sure he'll be fine, since his made of 100% cotton! hehe. maybe will lose a few fluff here n dere. hehe. get well soon teddy!

happy 6th monthliversary teddy bear!

2007-07-10T13:01:00.000+08:00

this wasn't how i expected to spend my 10th of july but thanks anyway.

2007-07-10T00:25:00.000+08:00

its jus brimmed n rolled, brimmed n rolled in an uncontrollable rhythem. dats all i noe. i tried hard. tried all i culd. yet i culdnt stop it. de feeling of helplessness slowly inched its way into de heap of endless emotions, confusing them all. de agonizing moment replay in a vintage black and white film frame by frame amplifying de unnecessary, making it excruciating. i guess my only option is to bow down n obey. dere is no other way. are dere any other alternatives? i wish i knew. maybe sub conciously i do.

2007-07-09T03:11:00.000+08:00

i shuld haf known my place. i shuld neva haf crossed de line. but i did. n now i'm at a lost. this is probably my only solace. it is de only thing i haf left. i am not sure wat can alleviate how i feel rite now. i wish i was more prudent. maybe things wuld haf been better dat way. maybe it wuld haf neva led to this.

i guess maybe i shuld not haf cared. i shuld not haf bothered. it wuld haf saved me de trouble. but i did. its too late. look at where i am now. it doesn't matter. i dun matter.

i shuld noe my place. i shuld not cross de line. i noe my place now. i wun cross de line. i will forget. i will forget everything. this is my solace. this is all dat is left now.

2007-07-08T23:10:00.000+08:00

okie. needa make some amendments. lol. shuld be thanks to wai tat's mummy fer de nice nice chicken wings n justin's mummy fer de chocolate cake. hehe.

simple day of lying down. hehe. dun really rmb doing anything much sides fer watching bleach. hmm. i can't even remem how de day pass. lol. cept dat my stomach kept feeling uncomfortable. dunno wats wrong wif my stomach nowadays.

supposed to go town today but its postponed to tml, tml supposed to go ice skating but postpone to dunno when. lol. so much fer schedule. i guess lifes leddat. its alwaiz unpredictable. oh well. if life was predictable it wun be interesting now wuld it?

de day de 3 split. was it today? or was it 3 years ago? was it something all of us wanted? maybe we did. jus at diff timings. guess things can neva be de same anymore. not anymore. not anytime soon perharps. i guess it wasn't significant to begin wif. dats y it was neva treasured. i had refused to gif up. but it seems dat i'm left wifout a choice.

i neva thot i wuld hear u say something leddat. it hurt. it sure did. guess its jus something i hafta learn to accept. it wuld be fer de better i presume. perharps it came when it was least expected. i wasn't prepared. dats y it hurts. it mus be cos i was not prepared. it mus be. most say de truth hurts, others say ignorance is bliss. den y do we not spare de rod n spoil de child? y den is honesty de best policy?

troubling, puzzling, words to describe de conversation. its been on my mind since it came to light. certainly dere is an explanation. but wat good will de explanation do? wuld it make de situation better or otherwise? i do not haf de ans. i noe too dat u do not haf it.

questions, questions, so many questions. questions i noe no answer will be filled. but.... i like it better this way. leaving it unanswered.

disappointment is an emotion when an expectation did not reach its desired outcome.

i got my pig pig fotos!!

de day my pig pig is born!

cute rite? hehe.

i am screaming: stop! n smell de roses! stop! n appreciate de ppl arnd u!

2007-07-08T01:13:00.000+08:00

quick update. did noth much yest, jus went fer dinner wif baby after driving. supposed to go fer supper but fell aslp while waiting. guess u can tell how much of a pig we are. lol. but i can defend myself. JY influence me! hehe. i'm not such a pig until i met him. now. i simply love afternoon nappies! esp after lunch. hehe.

now fer today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTIN & JERMAINE~!
brief intro for new characters
{justin is evelyn's bf}
{jermaine is baby's gf}
baby goes fer supper wif jermaine practically everynite (wif justin as well) but fetches jermaine to supper n home again. baby loves jermaine very much. too bad jermaine is going into ns next sat. aww.. *giggles*

tonite bbq was nice. think this is de first time dat i ate so much at a bbq in sucha long time. usually i hardly eat at bbq. but today food was nice~~ i luurvveee de mutton satay.. yummy!! n de chicken marinated by justin's mummy! hehe. justin n wai tat so poor thing. cos wai tat keep cooking while we all kept eating n justin keep serving n making de drinks. lol. but de food was jus too yummylicious dat eveybody jus kept whacking. lol. i'm oso one of de guilty culprits. hehe. greedy me jus kept eating n eating cos i simply love de satay so much~ loads of food n idle chit chat, too bad my stomach wasn't feeling well. was feeling rather wierd so i ask baby to send me home first. yuppy! so now i'm home blogging. lol. feeling kinda bad making baby send me home den he go back to join em. somemore accompany me awhile at my place before going back to join his frens. okok. maybe i dun feel dat bad after all. wahaha.

yay! baby gonna fetch me home frm training tml~ or shuld i say later. hehe. no more long bus rides home in sweaty clothes this sun! can faster go baby's place to take a nice cold bath! wowwee~

thinking of starting wow again. but not sure if i shuld. i mean, i was so protected all this while when i was in it. clan, strategies, battlegrounds, stats, everything was planned fer me. gold, bags, things i needed was jus given. help needed to do quest or instances were immediately offered. not sure if things wuld be smooth this time around, restart everything n level up again, not sure if i wanna do it all over again. oh well. maybe try fer 2 mths. ok. enuff abt gaming!

its shopping time~ gfs! gfs! i wanna go shopping!! let go~ i wanna buy tops~ hehe. hmm.. wonder if dere are any sales. i needa get tops fer myself n baby too! lol. guess we're both lacking of tops. lol.

i'm kinda torn by de conversation i had this afternoon. not sure wat is going on or wat is trying to be put across. all i noe is dat wateva was said, affected me. maybe i shuld jus not put so much thots into it.

i'll upload a few pics of my pig pig fer u to see tml! cos i've not installed de s/w into my new lappy. i'll do it tml thou. so excited. my pig pig is shooo cute~! love it to bits~

//some nagging words//
cherish de one u love everyday. be thankful. jus be thankful dat dey are dere. life is so much happier dat way.

2007-07-05T21:49:00.000+08:00

aww.. i fell down on de road on my way to driving skool today. *sob sob* so pain u noe? i almost cry alrdy but lesson started so cannot cry. haiz. dats not all. on my way to facial i almost fell off de escalator. *humph* i dun wanna be clumsy anymore! i was so tired frm de shock today n i had my afternoon nappy! hehe. but feeling tired again.. guess i jus need to lie on my bed more n not move. hehe.

actually my life is kinda simple now. driving, meet gfs, meet baby. hehe. i lyk my kinda life now. simple n i'm looking forward to everyday, everyday! lol. can't wait fer next week! cos baby got off! so i can go n irritated him everyday! hehe. its lyk having holidays again! miss de times in sentosa *happy sigh* i wan to go disturb him everyday! hehe. but hope he will get well soon. oooooo.. maybe can play wow since we can't go out cos he has to rest at home n got nowhere to go oso. hehe.

feel lyk going vivo. VIVO! hehe. dunno go dere fer wat. jus something random i guess. i wan to watch ratatoulille! de rat is so cute!!! hehe. baby promise to bring me go watch alrdy cos i brought him to watch transformers. wow! transformers was really gd. really funny! lol. baby n justin copy de part frm transformers super funny. i lyk to watch baby do dat n act retarded. hehe. i wanna watch the simpsons movie too! oh! and harry potter! whao~ so many shows to watch, so little time, so little money. lol. wish i could jus say ka-ching! ka-ching! and money falls into my hands. wahahaha! i love to daydream.. hmm..

{btw, pig pig was born today! show u a pic of pig pig soon!}

a kiss fer today for i learn to stand up after i fall.
n a hug for tml, a day i'm looking forward to.

toodeloos~

2007-07-05T00:39:00.000+08:00

omg! sudden outburst of happiness! listening to music and dancing in my winnie de pooh pjs! wat a sight. lol. i love my life. i love my frens. i love you.

2007-07-04T23:31:00.000+08:00

the day started of on de right note. was feeling really happy all de way till evening. u know there are times where you are really looking forward to something so much so dat your pinning your hopes on it. and when you realise dat its probably not gonna happen, de hopes jus seems to be dashed. sometimes i wonder if i'm naively optimistic or just plain stubborn. anyway my dashed hopes were dashed. lol. so dats something to be happy abt.
{however, the question still lingers-am i naively optimistic or just plain stubborn?}

alwaiz be wif someone who brings out de best in you. de better you. neva really thot much abt dat phrase till one fine day i'm suddenly eating my greens, suddenly waking up early. hee. am i a better person just by eating my greens? hehe. i wish! wat i'm trying to say is, u noe dat dere is something funny going on (not de haha kinda funny) when you take special effort to remember things (remembering is not easy for me ok!) or to do it. i'm messing my head now. all i noe is dat i wan to cherish my baby everyday.

crazy train ride today. dere was really loud laughing and really loud crying and really loud noises. well de really loud laughing was frm me. and de really loud noises was frm me too. but not de crying. i can simply imagine how it feels. how hurt it must feel. i remember de last time i cried so hard dat i completely lost feelings for a while. i cried and cried n i suddenly stop cos i could feel not sadness nor happiness. oh well. dats another long long story of de past. now i'm couldn't be more bouncier (if ever dere is sucha word) i jus wanna bounce all day long! (i'm still a crybaby thou) i just love to cry! hehe.

i think i'm spoiling baby too much! but he spoils me too! n i simply love it! spoil me more! spoil me more! hehe. this may sound weird but i love it when he kiss my hand! makes me feel so impt, so princess, so so so i dunno... respected? erm. dat sounds wrong. hehe. wat will i do wifout you? wat will you do wifout me? aww..

enough of my lamenting n mushy mushy stuffs! i'm sorry. i can't help it. i can try thou. but i jus can't help it. hehe. read it n get goosebumps! hehe. *grins widely* bleah~

i miss my gfs! think its been a week or 2 since we last met? we need to meet soon!!! but not this coming week.. u noe y.. haiz. after dat yar? candy.. y am i an angel wifout wings?? y?? y?? i wan to fly~ i wan to fly!! lol.

SHOUTS of de day
Believe in something, believe it all de way!

2007-07-03T22:14:00.000+08:00

wow. a few weeks more to a whole new start. feelings of excitment and frightfulness rush back to the my first day in poly. damn i feel old! hehe. poly wasn't a bad experience neither was it something to be over de top abt. anyway. all i hafta do throughout uni is to keep reminding myself to study hard and not screw myself up lyk i alwaiz do. lol.

first gd news of de day!
I PASSED MY FINAL THEORY! (lyk finally *sniggers*)
{ken so bad-laugh at me cos thot i fail my FTT *humph*}

bad news of de day..
TP is 05/10 awww..

think i'm becoming lyk baby so lazy. felt so tired after driving wifout my afternoon nappy. still i stubbornly headed to town to meet michael n i got my mouthwash n cornflakes which really made my day! cos i've been craving fer honey cornflakes. cornflakes! cornflakes! cornflakes!

{oh yar! i betta put this down in case i ferget-if chubby chubby michael is still as chubby by the next time i see him, he owes me dinner! if not i owe him dinner (which is mostly lykly not gonna happen. hehe.)}

recently i realised my life has been all abt waiting. waiting for this to happen. waiting for that to occur. so much so that i hate waiting yet feel so numb abt it. the meaning of contridiction.

yest as i watched baby fall aslp, i lay in his arms feeling very peaceful. jus being by his side makes me feel at ease. no more rushing through schedules. no more waiting. just dere and then. just happy. life has neva been this gd. maybe life has been too gd. too gd dat i'm afraid of losing it. too gd dat i've become too dependant on it. too gd dat its de only thing i look forward to now. let me bask in bliss forever!